okay since i've nothing to do now and feel so sleepy, so update my blog abit.

(not that i dont want to work, but waiting client to revert, some more done with all my paper works d, surf net until sien and also facebook's game not interesting liao :p)

hah!

free until so damn free, busy until freaking busy, why ar? couldnt understand. designer's life is up and down huh, it can changed in just a sec to a totally different situation.

oh yesterday i attended the board meeting, phew, like finally there's a meeting, but nothing much to shout out, problems still hanging there, and all of us already sick of it, some more we all dont have like last time punya commitments d, well just let it be, as usual, either u scored or u failed, very simple. just dont get too much tension in it i can say overall, cause i'm really tired and i've done my best..

feel like wanna change everything (oh well i'm changing it already) changed a new car, done with loan and now waiting for the car (actually got car d but not the color i wanted! so wait la) and i need to change my phone! dont know whether it's the right time for me to get iphone.. and i'm still considering whether to apply new credit card by this month or next month. oh today got a parcel (so happy to receive a parcel) actually i bought a bag from an online boutique, finally got myself a new bag, a vintage bag actually.. yay! but still i miss the guess bag :( price of coz a big difference! omg i'm changing so many stuff d!

ah i need some sparkles in my life.

guess my life are getting boring.. keep repeating the same o' problem aso sien d..

not feeling to be in a relationship for now also, being so disappointed, and hurt and no confident for myself.. sick of seeing people living happily ever after or broke up ady and still couldnt let it go.. stuck in the middle is the most suffering wei! i'm not regret or anything, just felt when the chance is not standing beside me and i'm still believing thr's another 2nd chance *finger crossed*

bah another 2 more hours to kill!

what should i do now?

yet another celebration

was planned last minute again for this lunch date, and i'm sorry i've delayed a week for gene's birthday treat, actually we was planning to have a road trip just 3 of us but too bad i cant make it and need to postponed it until early of aug.. i'm sorry guys! exactly last year i've also been postponing the celebration as well, my fault!

so when i was about time to goto gene's place to borrow her camera, she said that she can have lunch with me 1st before her friends come and pick her up, so we ended up at zen jap restaurant for our late lunch (brunch).. and i've mention before i bumped into my ex's friend who worked as a chef in that restaurant.. many thanks again for the yummy seafood salad & the potato salad! (guess it's kinda expensive though)

i like the environment there, kinda relaxing and the sunshine from outside, love at first sight! ha ha.. i always been to sushi zanmai but not zen :p sure will pay another visit next time! their interior also quite simple & unique, food was delicious as well and the service, erm need to improve la (or was i dine in that time is their off hours?) just 2 of the waiters who served for the whole restaurant.. overall ok la.. price also very nice some more! hah!

as usual we camwhore in between our meals and chit chat non-stop..

happy belated birthday! *hugs*

complimentary by the chef *thanks* (already have half of it then realized i haven snap pictures!)

happy gal!

tuna sushi *nice*

big prawn sushi *thumbs up*

very cozy dinning area with a pretty lady! ha ha..

and this little gal who's so cold and hafta wrap around with her scarf.. oh that's my latest hairstyle -.-" kiddy look! i wish my hair can grow faster now!

the dessert.. even more cold~

nice dinning place at zen (promoting zen pulak)

and she put in the whole muachi ice cream into her mouth!!

and i refused to eat coz too cold d.. freezing :p

then she's giving me this disappointed face :p

so i smiled at her.. grab 1 pc and eat lor.. no choice!

and smiled back to her again

one more.. hahahhah.. sick of my face eh.. couldnt help it.. just it turned out so nice and natural.. love it so much! (except my stupid bangs!)

ok gonna grab my lunch now! till then! :)

thinking of u

suddenly i'm thinking of him again!
oh no why am i so emo at the night eh?

actually few days back i've post a status on twitter saying: you've brighten up my day!

story is not him or neither anyone brighten me up that morning, it's just i got compliment by my boss saying that i've done a good job, client like the design very much and it's a big project i can say, so i guess this is the biggest account that company have for the year! and i'm proud that the project that handled by myself finally got some rewards, my work being appreciated! that's why i'm so happy about, whole day was in a very good mood.. not until in the evening..

when i realized something unexpected, he removed me from his facebook account, and i guess i've also been block in his msn list -.-" it turned me real down.. i know it's not a big deal or what, just feel that it kinda disappointed.. and what's wrong with me? why am i still thinking of him when he doesnt really care about it :( i'm sad.. i still cant overcome my feeling towards him.. while checking some msg in my phone today, i looked back on his msg again, yea i still keeping those msg in my phone, just a few which i didnt delete it last time, and it makes me sad again, recall back the past few months it was a really sweet memory for me..

perhaps this round i need to put it all down completely, i dont know how to react when i heard the rumors still going on, and that's kinda funny.. well i'm now just guessing and thinking too much again.. couldnt help but just my imagination is more than what i've expect.. i couldnt lie that i still care and think about him.. i'm just so silly! i've been cheated by believing miracles!

i dont want to be so strong afterall, i need to be pampered eh! relationship is the most difficult game that i've played, and i'm failed.. for the 1st time i've put my career behind the relationship.. i'm tired on my career ady and i need some sparkles in my life!

proud of myself

never been so free and relax for the weekends, and today i amazingly woke up at 12! very rare situation as i always need to wake up early for work, even on weekends.. everyone been asking me why am i so free today -.-" why i cant have a day off ler? hmm

let see, today i had lunch with gene at zen, pyramid, was surprised that bump into ex's friend (which i forgot his name, my fault) who worked as chef in zen, more surprise is he treated us a plate of seafood salad (i guess, cause didnt eat much) and potato salad! really wanted to thank him so much! supposed this is for gene's birthday lunch, haha, but we got ordered more food la.. their sushi and dessert very nice (will post it next time, got pictures!) then we chit chat abit and camwhore abit, as usual la.. after that gene going to meet her friends and i walk around at pyramid alone to do some survey and take some pictures for work (thanks gene for borrowing her cam, my cam borrowed to fay, why so confusing ar.. hmm) yes i'm doing work on weekend also, for a big project coming up, kinda excited though, snap pictures like no body business, people around looking at me i also dont care, hah!

and the evil part begins, after done for my survey i went some window shopping since i was in pyramid.. and there's many of S-A-L-E!!! couldn't resist it so have to check out all the stores (being so desperate to shop for cheap items pulak) mind my words - window shopping only! cause i've banned from shopping until end of the month! early of the month already splurged on 2 watches, must control! so i was in guess and i spotted a bag (my bag spoiled d so hafta look for a new one) like it very much, some more got 40% off! i was struggling in the shop for awhile, even i asked the sales girl to take a new one for me and gonna pay! but at last i dropped it, i dont know why, maybe i've think of the hard earn money and how i just spend like that! proud of myself #1

so sad to leave the store, and i was thinking maybe i get another cheaper bag to use 1st.. so i went to f21 to search for it.. along to the store i spotted aldo got sales! (see sales are evil) so i automatically walk in to aldo and spotted a mary jane's heels that i wanted to get for a long time! 50% some more T.T too bad it's last pair, and the sales girl are evil again, she said she can give me another 10% due to some minor scratches on the heels! argh so tempting! but i told myself to control control control! leaving the shop with tears in heart again! proud of myself #2

no mood to shop already, the more i shop the more i wanted to get everything.. but i'm proud at myself i can control of spending so much on all the branded stuff! if i were at the last time i sure will buy it, at last regret why i spend so much and make myself so broke, suffer! ha ha.. actually not broke also, just that over my budgets!

oh and actually i wanted to get some new clothes for work in topshop, luckily didnt try it.. if not i sure regret again why i didnt get it.. proud of myself #3

went to pick up my mum after that, help her abit in her shop then went back home for dinner.. after dinner mum said wanted to goto aunty's place so i'm thinking of going to perodua showroom to have a look, dad tag along.. and guess what.. i've made my biggest purchase! for now la.. aiks.. so it's confirmed i'm getting myvi SE pearl white! yay! can get my new baby in 2 weeks time.. bah.. i've control for buying expensive and branded things in the afternoon, but at night i splurged even more! no eyes see! proud of myself #4 (this statement is to say that i'm proud to made decision in just less than 1 hour -.-")

aih.. luckily i haven go and apply for a new credit card, if not means more spending for me.. now i've to look into my monthly spending again, need to calculate again and again! why money gone so fast? wish that i'm in the rich family or i just marry a rich husband so i can get everything that i want!

oh no! i'm dreaming again! not even asleep yet.. aiks.. perhaps i just need to get more jobs for more money to spend! bah i need to stay in the house to avoid using money again!

interns in m3

after been 3 months training in the company, it's time to bid farewell! my dear interns, ah kee and ah mi been helping me alot on the 3D jobs that i'm handelling, but still need to put alot of time and efforts to teach them the production things and also the working flow in an agency (it reminds me of my intern period in ewf, still keeping in touch with them!) way more to learn gals, and i hope you gals can scored in your finals! all the best!

both of them really likes to gossip alot in the office! sometimes can hear them just laughing non stop in the studio! at least they bring alot of fun in the office, not that stress during working hours! aww.. kinda miss them! pictures time! i edited them to some kind of pop art, more colorful and more cheerful! he he

the celebration

backdated post for steve's birthday celebration

wasnt plan at the begining, cause the eden's members had watched the transformer on the 23th mid night show.. oh speaking of transformer, i was so lucky to book the tickets few days before it showed in cinema, and all halls & cinemas are fully booked, lucky me booked for tgv at pyramid, nice seats some more, in the center! so i thought i belanja-ed him for a movie since he broke up no longer ago (and he still damn sad right now, aiks) & for his birthday present, give him nice seat some more.. he sat in between 4 of us! okay back to the celebration, the next day after the movie, ice called fay and said to have a birthday dinner with steve, so since they've planned something i just followed la..

so we went to home town, the cafe behind eden, newly opened and they have promotion for free drinks (the day before i had dinner at the same place -.-") was so upset with their services and also cant stand on the menu design (professional sickness!) all meals being messed up and ended up some of us didnt get out drinks! very very mad! boikot it ady :p and at last i was the one who pay for the bill -.-" cause i complained and the guy talk all the nonsense just in front of me! i just pay the bill and went back to eden!

and the stupid waiter just place the cake on the floor not in the fridge.. aiks.. so we just decided back to eden and chill better! got aircond, nice music, nice seats some more! hmmp.. without wasting time we faster get the cake out, sang song, blow candle and cut cake.. then chit chat until the rest of the night, feels so good actually.. so that's wrapped up for the celebration!

okay pictures time (in random order)






as you can see i just drank a glass of ice water! some more waited for so long also!







that's the last celebration in eden! we've moved down.. guess it's the tradition to celebrate in eden for every eden's member huh.. but mine are not.. kakak.. soon you guys will see a brand new and more cozy side of eden!

next up crazy interns farewell post!

yay!

revamp my blog! hah! actually not a big change also, just changing the header & the theme color.. he he.. recently obsessed with grey! now is my fav color after pink and yellow :p

and also i've changed the title of my blog, guess i'm not creative enough d.. ha ha.. cute little princess carmen sounds nicer don'tcha think? he he

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been so busy on eden lately, still under renovation, exactly the same situation as last year, but i predict this year will be more difficult(and more challenge) than last year, really need to start all over again, and i've made my choice to stay, for the time being, i dont want my heart to broke again! not that it mean so much to me (from the begining it's not my choice also!) but i can see there's something that i can have or hold on.. and i wonder why would i hafta stand so strong for? or what else i can believe besides miracles? hmm.. i would like to talk more about eden but i cant, it's everybody's business and truth to be tell i cant voice up! even though i voice up also no use, commitment getting weaker day by day.. seems like losing the trust! not their fault but is everyone's fault, i miss the time where we worked really hard for it, i mean last year.. but this year all seems to be tired and sick of the problems that keep on coming.. bah.. just let it be.. i've done my best and i know where's my limit, maybe i can just stop anytime if i wanted to, i dont want to blame on ppl who drag me in or what, being silly is part of growing up as well, and i've learned from that alot :)

sometimes i just cant recognize myself anymore, i've changed alot! dunno it's good or bad thing, but i assumed that's a good sign, and i know i'm very very lucky! cant ask for more ady.. dont be too greedy carmen!

till then!
i've pictures to post up, wait till next post la.. he he

big family dinner

as promised, i blogged! hah!
this time with all the happy happy pictures!
lazy to caption, just enjoy!

btw this big family dinner is special for my uncle who honored as the title of Dato! congrats again!


showing off her brand new watch! oh did i blogged about i've splurged again for 2 fossil watches & 2 fossil leather belts? aiks.. i'm officially banned for shopping!

the brothers

beauty & the beast.. wakakkakakkaakakk :p

cousinssss

from the young generation to the ahpek (pls refer left to the right..lol)

aunty & shawn

another group shot again

and mum wanted to take photo with them also (seems like they're popular huh)

happy family 1

happy family 2

no need to bend down gua -.-"

lovely couple

and finally big family portrait! minus bro & big aunty :(

finally the 8 of us (bro missing again)

and with the other yonger cousins (i'm the 2nd eldest, old d.. aih)

one more shot before leaving

and this is the last, sis n bro (no eye see them, still got some vain pic but dont wan to put up to spoil my blog :p)

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on the other notes:
happy birthday to hikiiiiii!

and this week i've took whole stretch half day leave (except mon), so later going off d! he he..
till then!