sick

down with sick again,
2nd time in a month, bravo!

at first was having serious flu last week for 3 days,
then yest n today having high fever n sorethroat!

damn all kind of sick come in 1 shot,
felt like wasting time lying on the bed only.
and i still have damn lot of works to do!
blargh!

2am

am still up for work now :(

suffering from all the stress i had, and making myself looks like shit now.. haih.. i dont know what can i do now except work work and work non stop, even go out i cant really relax and enjoy! i think this round i really need a break, a real break!

cheered up by chai just now, actually he did made my day :) i wan to see it in real person! lol

and even went to mv for camera survey with philip, having a nice chat and dinner with him, but when back to work the mood totally changed. i just couldnt take so many stress! too many things bother me now until i cant take any more move, just can say work harder and harder, taking life to another stage and also trying not to push myself so hard.

few days back have a nice chat with khang (in a very wrong place also!) make me feel so much better, at least ppl around me care about me. :) i really need to catch up with all my old friends!

and for my situation, i dont really like to beg people for help, i need supports, someone could really understand my situation and mentally helping me.. really thanks to my apek cousin who always listen to me.. he he.. and giving me alot of advice which is good for me.

another busy week ahead, finger crossed that i can survive and done all my works! and i hope my hardwork really get paid off! that's a simple request i needed for the time being. i just need to be pampered!

life sucks, hating it alot. how can i change it?

oh well, i officially categorize this page as emo blog from now on! either hates it or love it. this is just my 'ordinary' life which full of shocking challenges!

i wanna scream my lungs out!

urghhhhhhhhhhhh

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

damn damn stress, i just wanted to shout out or cry out again!

please dont rush me anymore, everything must follow the queue, all tight deadlines, damn it!

ok feel so good after shouting thru text -.-"

actually i should be blogging about all my happy stuff! i have so many things to share! no time to edit pics yet, guess i think it'll just drag till no way.. hm..

and i've been drinking alot of wine lately, my addiction is back now.. hoho.. last time i was wine addict, everytime been drinking at friend's house! eekkss, should control my drinking, cant always be drinking non stop!

alrite back to work.. boooo!

2.1.2010

not to late to wish everyone happy new year!

spanking new year ahead, festive season mood already gone and now is the 2010, time flies so fast, hardly taking a deep breathe to slow down. time is so precious!

i'm loving december but hating january.

december is the festive month where thr's lots of holidays, which means got excuses for nice meals & party down town, been having xmas lunch, dinner, bbq & drinking session, get closer with all the colleagues, friends n family, and also pampered myself by buying an expensive bag (again!) then off to new year dinner & countdown, but starting on 1.1.2010 already woke up early for work and work.

*for the picture viewing me lasy to upload it here, just goto my facebook to view XD

**and for my status update just follow me at twitter.. lol.. abandoned my blog ady.

actually now i should continue my work but i'm just not into the mood, whole body aching and lack of sleeps. and also been emo for the pass few days, i dont know why the bad luck is still sticking me, wont let me have a normal life as i wish to, just cant let go on the things that i've been struggling now. feel so bad!

the whole thing for this blog post aso kinda emo, i cant control my feelings when the bad things happened on me, and i've cried again for once when the situation is so damn bad and the feeling is so sucky! i told myself to be strong but i just couldnt hold my tears, it automatic dropped down. worst thing just pushing me very hard and i cant stand it. haih.

felt so stupid and silly for once again. in everything: career, family, friends and relationship, all damn complicated game that needed alot of efforts to play and move on. the most difficult game is the relationship part, just couldnt guess what will happened next or how the feel had totally changed. miss all the things that he had done for me and what we've been, the sweetest time is always too short, only left memory in my heart. surprises makes me happy :) yet coolness makes me upset :(

miracles oh miracles! i'm still believing it no matter how bad is the situation. i know i'm damn lucky and too greedy to ask for more, but for just once i'm hoping miracles happen on me, everything goes well and hard work pays off!

time for some sleep, if not turned into zombie again.

work just drag till tomorrow, it's still holiday wei!