droppin'

feel like dropping it!

no i'm not crazy or mad on anything, just felt that i'm over or exceed my limit, making myself hard to breathe and also for the time consuming..

time to update my emo blog again..

bah really stress la! need to start all over again! it's been a year.. i still remember exactly last year was the most difficult time for me, i got my job, and helping mum at the same time in her saloon, and also ex gone into serious accident.. some more eden just build up.. all happened in just 3 months! now i'm going through the situation again, the difference is i'm now not in the relationship anymore and mum ady hired workers, why am i still so stressed again ar? isit i'm really sick of everything? or i'm really tired on what i have now?? no money no career no relationship.. this is my situation now.. all being cramp up.. some more i hafta work so hard for nothing! really nothing! i dont see what i can get if i still continue to be like this, making me exhausted, time has been pulled up.. nothing i can get now! i know if i can wait i will have a backup or what or earn big money, but this is not all i want for!

seriously i need to think real hard this time and make a wise decision.. a year, 365 days i've been through all the hard time, worth for me? drop eden? or my job? it's seems now it's my daily routine and part of my life ady.. kinda wasted if i drop either 1 because of all the hard works that i'm putting in.. time flies! couldnt believe it!

i need to set my goal again~

upcoming plan:

1st up i'm getting a new car real soon (yea i know i've mentioned it like dinosaur yrs ago) guess i'm getting myvi se.. dad disagreed to let me have 2nd hand vios or city.. although it's almost the same price range.. so no choice la, stick back to the very 1st choice..

2nd i'm getting another new credit card, means spend more for me! hah.. i'm a card person and not a cash person.. so you wont find my purse got alot of cash, i can carry just RM1 for 3 days!

3rd need a new makeover! or i shall said i need diet badly, need to go for exercise ady, cant be lazy anymore! i'm fat now :( i wan back my balance and healthy body! drink more juice and eat more vegetables! sleep early also! everyday must sleep at least 7 or 8 hrs!

4th haven think of it yet.. hah! just hope for everything run smoothly in my life, at least for now, eden will be reopen by end of the month and i'm giving my best to help, work i ady spend all the sleepless night just to finish up all the jobs and i'm trying to attend every family dinner.. and i need to contact back all my old friends! been missing in action for awhile! also i'm giving more chances for myself to get a new bf! hahaah.. sounds like i've rejected many of the guys huh..

there's still alot of pending post.. wait till i got all the pics 1st and edit it and post up! haha!

time to sleep! nites!

so what can i ask for now? this is my life.