Monday, June 01, 2009

misunderstanding?

sad again, today got an email saying my work dont meet the expectation and i need to stop doing the job, been rejected due to my misunderstanding and also lack of communication skill.. why am i 1 step by 1 step drowning myself in the situation that i dont want to be in.. i'm hating myself for not able to deal with client, it's not an easy job and kinda hurt that all my visuals that i've been putting in so many efforts just gone like this, from concept till now, been changing many rounds and still client is not satisfy and now company is losing an account.. i know boss was not happy with it even he didnt talk to me directly, already apologize to him and i'll try to pick up my communication skills and learn how to deal with people..

bah.. tiring day again..

weekend just over like this, been doing 3D day and night, no one could appreciate it even i didnt render it out, hard work just gone case again.. sometimes when i've a motivation to do certain jobs but turns out to be like this, working like hell also cant help! i'm lost again.. just feel that i dont want to face it or even think about it..

and also i dont want to be so kind until people just relying on me and i have to follow their way, feels sucks.. like a puppet let people move around.. my patients are limited.. merajuk-rajuk until my heart melt then taking advantages on me.. demanding me to follow the way it's.. aiks.. i need to stop it wei, suffer is myself only! keep on hurting myself pulak.. i need pampered la!

i dont even know whether i should believe on miracles again, i've been asking him again, too many questions in my heart and i need to untied my knot.. i dont even know how am i going to face him, just feel so weird!

i felt damn shitty now on what ever i've done and used to be.. for once again i'm in deep shit and drowning all the way down.. fml!

will post up some happy pics soon! although i'm laughing and acting like nothing, but deep in side my heart is so damn pain and so suffering even i cant tell! maybe i should create another blog that i can only rant out all the unhappy stuff and keep it privately.. urgh!

1 comment:

Si Yin said...

Cheers =)