i'm alone? not!

lonely for being just me, myself and i..

guess this is the best time for me to concentrate on my jobs.. my daily routine is woke up-traffic jam-m2 work-lunch-m2 work-traffic jam-eden work-dinner-sleep.. that's what i've done since few months ago.. 

it's so hard when starting a business.. and everything need to handle by myself.. this time i've grown up to be more mature and i want succeed in my career.. my friends are really care for me.. i was so touch.. without them i wont stay strong so fast.. thank you so much.. you all mean a lot to me! 

well it's still an emo post here.. i don't have any interesting picture to post.. don't have any outings.. it's just that i was too busy and had no time to social.. i know this is bad for me, but for the time being, or maybe few more months later i'll take a real break.. get out of this reality and enjoy in my small little world! *lol* 

and i want to dedicate this post to my queen, gene a.k.a hiki for all the time accompany me through all bad situation that i'm facing recently.. thank you so much for all your advices and the supports.. you know how i feel badly and you cheer me up, you don't ask me what problem i'm facing but you try to get into the situation and advice me.. you let me choose the decision that i want without influence me.. you know how to do silly things to makes me happy.. you treat me meals when i'm broke.. wah you have done so many things to me! countless! i'm glad i've such a best friend in my life! keke.. 

somehow when you have problem you also share with me, and since then we become twins! lol.. all of our colleagues also cannot stand us.. :p hope you don't tear when saw this post.. keke.. and i truly wish you can solve all your problems.. or at least you can share with me.. :)

and i'm not alone now.. cause i know i have my friends and family who are always support me and stand beside me.. you all made me a very very lucky person in the world..

thank you so much! i love you all!

xoxo,

carmen

ps: please stay strong! believe in your self! i know you can do it! and you know who i meant!

the 25th

is the 25th of the month again.. 25th of aug this year is a day that i felt so weird.. wonder why this feeling keep rolling in my heart.. 

bah! weather also felt the same to me today.. cloudy day.. i wish to see sunshine after this bad bad mood! 

cheer up carmen!

Mariah Carey - Bye Bye

it's been the 3rd day since we broke up.. everything are fine to me.. i had never been so tough before until today.. i had a flash back about our story.. and it's a past now.. and i'm now brave and strong enough to handle things by myself.. i no longer need you anymore.. and today is saturday night.. it's been a long time since i have a nice sleep..

you still call me time by time, and make sure i'm safe.. actually i was glad that you finally accept the reality.. but somehow i think you still cant put down at all.. you told me you not dare to tell your relatives when i'm not with you tonight for family dinner.. and you've told me your best friends scolded you for not being a good man, is this really matter to me or you?

we are now in a different directions now.. i need to start a new chapter in my life.. take care!

xoxo,
carmen

Fergie - Big Girls Don't Cry

i've told myself not to cry, be tough, carmen!

it's so hard to make this decision.. and finally i made it..

it's been 4 years, some said it's a long relationship but some disagree.. actually is not the matter of time and i've been suffering for this few months.. the reason? no body can really tell.. just felt that he's not the man i wan anymore.. somehow i would need to concentrate on my career.. and my future.. am i selfish?

it's another stage in my life now.. i wan to be free! i'm too pressure on everything! i really need a break this time.. and i dont think i underestimated you.. i didnt look down at you.. please brave yourself to handle the truth.. you still have a bright future in your life.. get stronger.. and i wanted to thankyou for giving me such a nice memory in my life..

you please accept my apology and let both of us still be friend again..

xoxo,

carmen

ps: i wanted to thank someone who comfort me and support me all the time.. you know who you are.. hehe..

backdated post: chris & gene's birthday celebration

lalala.. i'm back for blogging.. been really really busy as usual.. i know this is really a lame reason.. but please excuse me okay.. hehe..

let's start with some crazy photo on both girls celebration!
1st shot for bday girl-flaming lamborghini!

more candid shots!

i'ev died after this shots!

so much crazy n happy pics! keke.. i miss the moments like this! when is the next outing again? keke..

happy happy friday!