end of cny

in a hour time it's the last day of cny ady! happy chap goh mei in advance :D

phew time flies!

guess this cny i'm gaining weight again! eating n drinking non stop! some more gamble gamble n gamble.. keke.. in this cny i really got alot of spare time, to spend with my family & relatives, and also friends!

perhaps from this cny i've also putting down alot of things, and think from another perspectives. is the sign of getting old.. aiks! and the things that i'm happy with is i've putting down alot of expectation! so i is less disappointment but gain alot of surprises! :)

i'm slowly taking over the things that i really wanted stay the most, and putting more efforts on it. now most important for me is career n money! and guess what i'm so guai staying in on a sat night! lol

before signing off, showing one pic i like the most.. hehe..

till then!

xoxo

not-in-the cny mood

very very surprisingly i'm not into any cny mood at all! i haven got any time to clean up some more! and going for cny shopping -.-"

last week i was damn happening again, been going out for 4 days in a row! bravo! i'm so busy but still going out non stop, and didnt even finish anything yet!

starting from fri, went to work as usual, lunch time taking more time to goto bank, at 1st gene was planing for account opening, but she didnt managed to apply, and i was so coincident applied another new credit card (like finally) -.-" not intend to apply actually coz the RM50 charges, but since i'm in the bank, then might as well apply la.. story 1 ended, then at night dinner cum gathering with s6-ians, i was arrived early in pyramid and went for some shopping but didnt managed to get anything, soon wai lee n khang arrived and we went to reserve our table at full house cafe, it was packd -.-" no choice hafta wait for 30 mins and we lepak at pappa rich. finally at 8pm we only managed to get our seats and dine in, whole dinner session was very happening and fun, as usual la.. s6 spirit.. ha ha.. then we have 2nd round again! went to neway subang sing k! khang followed my car, and eventually i forgot where did i parked my car -.-" and finally found it after 10 mins! and we're the earliest to reached at neway! hoho.. so we get a room 1st (this sounds sooooo wrong!) actually xine ady called n reserved a room, then the rest came one by one, crazily sing for 3 hours and drinking non stop -.-" yes we all drunk sing and playing around till 3am! freaking 3am! i was home by 4, straight passed out!

*pic pls refer to my facebook, lazy to upload here :p

then on sat, the next day, early morning pergi buka kedai and doing some paper work in eden, then some photo touch up. suddenly khang called me and asking am i in eden, he's dropping by since he wants to come to puchong for cny groceries shopping -.-" and i said i'll accompany him for groceries shopping since i've finish my thing. tell you, this is the worst groceries shopping ever! not the companion but the crowd -.-" 1st we hardly get parking, then queued for trolley! imagine we have to wait for 3 rounds before we can get trolley! everyone was like so ganas rampas here n thr -.-" 1st time experience the trolley rampas-ing scene -.-" after we trying so hard to get our trolley, we shop for 100plus, and again the people rampas here n there, like no need money to buy! tragic! rampas until no stock, and also hardly to move around, trolley jam and also people jam, can u imagine that! -.-" khang said luckily i was there to jaga trolley and he go rampas the stuff with ppl -.-" after 2 hrs, finally done our cny groceries shopping, planned to go for a drink with khang but eden called up for help, so no choice back to eden work again. then at night was going out for drink at G6 with chai's gang, back home changed, picked up gene and head to mid valley -.-" that place was damn smokey and crowded! guess it's still new, some more music not nice! damn boring on that night, not worth to enjoy every single thing! was texting with khang whole night coz both of us went to sucky place, he was at opera.. lol.. another late night, arrived home at 3am and passed out!

sun morning pergi buka kedai again, damn tiring! but can rest abit at shop coz kinda free.. he he.. and then they all left early and left me alone in eden coz i've to wait for a customer. then head back home for dinner. later on khang picked me up and we head to tian hou gong for shooting, ady planned on fri and shee hoe tagging along, hika only join us after finish shooting.. but to my disappointment tian hou gong din switch on the tang lung light :( no mood to shoot anymore, after 1 hr lepaking there, we planned to go petaling street for shooting, since we're in kl, so we called up hika and meet there.. me, khang n shee hoe ady walked the whole petaling street but hika haven came yet, then waited at roadside, coz he said he bring us to somewhere else to minum n makan (the wanton stall closed that day) so we drove to heritage row, but didnt open, then klcc, jln p ramlee, bkt bintang, changkat n finally settled down at jln alor -.-" using 1 hr to set for our yam cha place! almost finish rounding kl! and we picked pappa rich! -.-" damn sigh! so we chit chat until 12am, hika dropped us back to petaling street, then khang dropped shee hoe at seputih and only he send me back home, rounding in kl area again -.-" and finally reached home at 1am, passed out again!

then yesterday dragged myself wake up early morning to work, busy for whole day, then at night went to kl (again!) for buffet dinner at Shangri-La hotel, eric's dad spend eden's family a nice meal since we're helping eric alot on his wedding, eat non stop for 3 hrs! damn full! back to eden ady around 11, get some work done then head back, passed out at 12.30am.

so this is all my "no-so-happening" outings! damn tiring! i need more personal time wei! need to go for cny shopping! urgh!

guess is the end of the emo post

i'm thinking to delete this blog, delete all the unhappy and sad story in my life, why is it happened again? mana pergi itu commitments? i've been crying for a week, and suffer from illness for 3 weeks, damn it, why my life is still getting worst? it's the brand new year wei!!

tragic part now only starting, and i really cant stand it anymore, i thought things is getting better but now it seems like no hope at all, miracles doesnt happen this time, sadly i can say i'm so damn stressed out myself, even i cant recognize myself anymore. from the beginning was the wrong path for me, now even getting deeper and couldnt get myself out of it.. fuck it! i know friends are important but we're in the business, not playing sand, and i've been pushing myself alot to do things better, well at least better than nothing, but this round i'm really really disappointed with you guys. i dont know how to describe but the feeling is so sucky now. everyone was like in a cold war, playing psychology games. damn!

i'm still wondering where's the happy moment we have for the past 2 years? we already been thru alot of things, from happy to sad, from poor to rich then poor again, hanging out like a family, where's this feeling now? now everyone seems like dont know each other anymore, speak also must think 1st. urgh, i hate this kind of feelings!

to fay i'll always at your side to support you, you're the most powerful girl on earth, even me cant beat you, we both sick also work, and always dont have food in tummy, save all the unused things just to make the money grow bigger, dont worry, they dont appreciate but i can see the hard works that you've putting into it, no one can understand how the feel was when no one appreciate, but i've been thru the situation and i understand why you'll have this decision. i wish you luck in your future undertakings, and i also hope it'll be a happy ending :)

well for me it's depends on my decision, if situation continue like that i wont stay, i'm really really tired as well, sick of all the problems again! i guess i really need a break on all my works and jobs on hand, everything is killing me, everything is getting worst not only for a small part but for my whole career, i dont think i can handle a company and doing another business in the same time anymore, i need to change both of my jobs!! pressure keep on coming like no body's business, i'm a human as well, and i have feelings wei! push too hard will make things worst!

to let me handle the company sounds not easy at all! and for the manpower i dont think i still can survive long, i know i'm blessed to have a chance which the road is set for me, but i'm just not ready to take over, even work is pressure with all kinds of aspect. just too hard for me if without anyone who can support me and teach me, somehow i felt it's the pressure and no appreciation for working like hell!

rushing and pushing myself so hard is torturing! and i need to stop it! i mean it!!

all the people wont understand me how i feel now, somehow i wish to change, my ability and limit is exceeded way too much, hurting myself and deep pain in heart no body can feel it. i'll still smile at all the people and fooling around, but not me anymore.

3 musketeers heng dais-1 i hate 1 i loved n 1 i respect
1 boss i respect n thankful for giving me chance
making me crazy!